I don't wanna wait 8 more days..
I'm still having trouble sleeping..it sucks cuz I love sleep..
There's only 21 days left..and I don't wanna wait any longer..
I don't remember if I've ever felt this lonely..
I've shut myself out from a lot of people..not necessarily on purpose..I use to enjoy spending time with myself..but the last few months have been different..I don't know if it the winter that's starting to get to me..but I just want to be around the people I love most..but that's hard to come by...the days spent with the ones I truly care about are few and far between..I'm working on my escape plan..the time to execute this plan is coming soon..hopefully all goes accordingly..
People and aquentinces (I know I spelt it wrong) are starting to realise that I'm not ok..
I'm going to work on this..and hopefully next time you read this or talk to me ill be better..
So last night I went out to a bar in waterford..to meet up with kids that I work with..thinking It would be nice to try an make new friends..I drove all the way out there..and aparently since I didn't get all dressed up to go to the bar..I'm a bum, a loser, a faggot, a queer, etc. I don't know how many names I was called..here I am trying to make new friends..and just because I wore a hooded sweatshirt and baggy jeans an don't use product in my hair..or maybe its cuz I have longer hair then all of them. They decided to make me feel like complete shit..I felt like I was hanging out with kids in jr high..the way the introduced me to all there girlfriends as the stupid fuck they work with was great..
today I spent all day in my room having a john hughes movie marathon..I watched 16 candles..uncle buck..breakfast club..ferris bueler..
I just want you to be happy...
Its messed up..seeng as I'm always negative and usually on the verge of breaking down that I'm always doing anything that I can to get you to crack a smile..
Idk I miss you so much...
I just want you to feel the way that I do when I'm with you..
I hate a lot of things..
Check my new site..
Watching bladerunner is better then seeing half the people in michigan..
Last night someone smashed my windshield..
...tell me its going to be ok..